Demeter

the Goddess at our workshop this month was Demeter. I think I have found one that i resonate with. I think I have been in Demeter archetype since a very early age.
what came to me at the workshop though, was healing the mother wound..

we had a lovely sharing Circle -

and created a seed mandala in honour of Demeter..each woman choosing seeds and placing them on a red velvet cloth..after we had finished, we each took a corner of the cloth and started to wave it, mixing all the seeds up.. and then we were given a paper bag to gather some seed [plus a garlic bulb from the altar] and we are to make ourselves a healing soup during the next month.

Demeter Altar
each woman lit a candle and sent her love and wishes for the world into the future.

healing of mother-daughter wound. my mother and I. which for me, is all about forgiveness, acceptance and letting go of the need to be responsible, guilty, not being perfect [embracing Athena also as part of this to help me with strength and courage to speak my truth, the poise and confidence to speak to my mother without anger, fear, frustration.. and to be patient with her]
Demeter will bring many things to me this month best of all a beginning of the healing of my ancestral wounds, you see, I believe that I have chosen all that happened to me as part of my soul journey. All the past trauma in my life has a reason and I am feeling blessed to have this opportunity now, to begin to heal all the past traumas of many ancestral lines and also into the future, to prevent the abuse that many women in my ancestral line have experienced. What an honour this is. Mind boggling actually. And I know that my great grandmother Laura stands beside me as I do this, as I travel to Cornwall in a few months. I now know this is part of the reason of my travelling over there.
[I can see that my mother is in the Demeter shadow archetype as Martyr]. What I can bring to this healing is a positive Demeter with eyes of compassion, warmth and generosity of spirit and quality of time spent with her, instead of feeling as if it is my ‘duty’
In turn, this will bring to me, to her, to the world, gifts of healing and regeneration.
I will do a ritual this month sometime, maybe at the time of the moon that I was born.. I have the tag that was wrapped around my ankle when I was born, this has blood on it and I will use this as part of my ritual. I am going to interview mum and allow her to talk about her childhood, lighting a candle and allow her to speak and really listen, like I do in circle to each of you. And maybe I can do a little gardening with her in her little unit where she lives.
I am feeling positive about this, I do love my mum but she does frustrate me alot.. this is where I can embrace my own Demeter archetype.

and in working with Demeter, an idea is brewing in my soul.. to hold a Circle meditation, worldwide, once a month.. creating our own mandala and then meditating with it .. will sit with this for a few days as it comes to me..

'we can heal the future, just by projecting love into it.. we can heal Earth, by sitting with Her, meditating and sending love to Her now and into the future"..
lets do it!! let's do this for the Bees.